Wednesday, February 24, 2010

The New Plan

"Whoa-oh ooooooooh. The right stuff" - New Kids On the Block

So as I continue down my path, I realize I don't have a great definition or label for myself.  Agnostic kinda works.  Atheist kinda works.  Secular Humanist kinda works.

All in all, what I do find is that my life continues without a sense of spirituality.  At least spirituality in the way most people seem to find it.  I do take time to appreciate the wonders of the world and I enjoy them greatly, but I don't spend a lot of time these days contemplating their origin or reason for being.  Nor mine, for that matter.

I know I'm here to affect change on the world and on others.  And I know that I have done so in many positive ways even sometimes in the veil of something negative.

These days I spend my time concerning myself with my own responsibilities.  I have found in the past that I seemed to spend a lot of time around people who really shirk their personal responsibilities, and as a result, I think I'm sensitive to it.  I feel a responsibility to do for myself and to those I'm responsible in a way that minimizes my impact on others.

I've always grown up sensitive to how others perceive me, and there was a time I bent over backwards to ensure that people saw me in the best light possible.  So far, in fact, that I often put aside my own wants and needs to feed this.

After snapping back from that, and the inevitable wobble it caused, I decided that not only were my needs important, but that I needed to be responsible for my imposition on others.

And thats how I try and live my life.  It's not perfect.  And it is a struggle, much like everybody else.  But I like knowing that my goals have tangible results, and that my accomplishments afford me proverbial feathers in my cap that give me preferential consideration towards things I find important.

I understand that successes are a product of my interaction with the uncertainty of the world and the efforts I make covering contingencies that are worth the success.   I also understand that failures are also the same product but with different, NOT NEGATIVE, results.   While I may not have accomplished my goal in a way intended, I did accomplish a different goal, and it is up to me to anticipate it if possible, and also to take responsibility for it, as well as re-evaluating the need to try again.

And in the meantime, I make effort to enjoy the little things and spend time appreciating my existence and the existence of others.

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